are you all in?

I'm alive! and I'm in Skjolden, Norway! sorry its taken so long to update my blog (which I promised to be regular about), but this is the first opportunity i've had to get onto a computer...so, here we go...

Norway has been amazing...why?...it is exactly where I am supposed to be. From day one, God has been challenging me, renewing me, reviving my joy, chipping away at my cold heart...God is good. Our team has been such a blessing, and what an experience it has been with the women...leading these amazing girls has already been a great journey and left me praising at answered prayers...God has given me more than enough energy to hike the mountains, all while being able to listen and engage in deep conversation with the girls...and oh how our God works, every single member of our team is the perfect addition, we are all desiring to grow in the same areas and I cannot wait to watch as God begins to stretch and mold us all...how sweet!

are you all in? two hours ago, our team finished our 24 hours of alone time with the Lord...a time purposed to begin preparing us for all that God has ahead of us this summer...the result...for the team it was a realization that our relationships with God are all or nothing, a full surrender of everything, thus, are you all in? this is the challenge, and if so, what does that mean for each one of us?...what did this 24 include for me? a realization of God's presence with me at every moment this past year, He will never leave me nor forsake me, He is here; an understanding that God has a transforming work to do in each of our lives this summer, which begins with a renewing of our minds (Romans 12:2); and a processing of the question that has been running through my mind ever since arriving in Norway...who am I? yes, I am God's, and yes, I desire for my identity to be found solely in Him. but, deeper than that, who am I as a daughter of the King? outside of all the expectations I, wrongly, set for myself and the masks I hide behind, who has He created me to be? what passions, what characteristics shine forth, what does He have for me...who am I?

this summer will be difficult, already has been difficult, this summer will be amazing, already has been amazing, this summer will be fun, already has been fun...this summer I am exactly, exactly, where God wants me.

I am all in.

Isaiah 43:18-19 "Forget the former things; do not dwell on the past. See, I am doing a new thing! Now it springs up; do you not perceive it? I am making a way in the desert and streams in the wasteland."

I love you guys! :)

P.S. I'm loving the Isaiah commentary, Dad! Absolutely mind boggling, leaves me speechless each time I read through it :) love you!